I Miss Blogging
Aug 17th, 2010 by Tana
It’s not that I’ve been too busy.
Well, I have been busy. Three kids, homeschooling, working from home, and all that does keep one busy.
But it’s not so much that I’ve been busy. It’s that I feel guilty.
Yes, that’s it. Guilty for blogging.
I work from home doing technical editing for knitting designers. I don’t do it full-time or anything. But I am subject to the ebb and flow of my designers motivation. Every morning I get up and check my email, knowing I may see more work in my email inbox. On one hand, that is good – I have work to do, which means extra cash that pads our budget a little. On the other hand, it means work to do, and guilt if I’m not doing it.
I know my designers don’t expect me to be working on patterns 24 hours a day. But if I’ve been blogging (instead of editing), it’s like they KNOW I’ve been doing something else. I’m even that way somewhat about my knitting. Down time is essential, but I feel guilty for taking it in certain ways.
I’ve gone back to my knitting. In fact, I’m making myself knit every day. I’m so much happier when I do. There are so many other ways that I fool around in order to have down time that I could totally cut out. I want to spend less time on those things and more time on the things I love. I want to take more pictures, knit more sweaters, write more blog posts.
Down time is down time, and we all need it. Can I successfully convince myself of that?
yes! you can!
and knitting everyday is ESSENTIAL to a balanced life. 🙂